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1.
Avant abstract Alchemical activism Party of the people Party by the people Party for the people Party with the people Party people People party Universalism Dance Multi Media Entertainment Engineering Free Speech not Hate Speech Preset Socialized Community Anarchist Individuality Utopian Default Dreams Living And Breathing Solidarity Streaming Information Communication Transparently
2.
Power pop Live
 (X6) Live Give It This Gifted Intuition. SiM-U-LATED SLiMMiNG 
inhibition Collision Lifting
 Spirits Implemented Proficiently Drifting 
Concision With it Shifting rift Represent
Sponsorship In Sitting 
Distant 
sus- picion’s Dis
po- sit
(s)i(ss)on 
Bent Penn-ant Pedant 
experimental Dis-orien-ted 
con-tent-ment A -Sub-se-quent 
in-tent-ional 
Acci-dent Illusion of Fre-quent -intent Cementing Consent 
Evidently Lamented 
Lent n spent 
rent Dis-ass-oci-ated 
Ascending exploiting Voidful senses
 distribute the memes & Seize the means 
of media Power Pop Power Pop Power pOp live Power pop Power pop Power pop cry Power pop Power pop Power pop Lie 
 Power pop Power pop Power pop Die Able to nevermind with my production censored Seams of hyper ware Caring sharing wear n tearing
Static airy heir thrown 
from a worn window
Harsh silent disclaimer smeared wearing stare 
Teeering swearing peering failing what when / how why / where n who You doing
what’s known n traded 
old for new
voice’s very own 
Instructional truth or dare Navigational flesh n bone
alone
tutorial choices owned
compounding hope’s void flown 
glowing fluidity blown
opportunity clones 
glitching noise deployed 
stoned phoney joy selling in & out to survive
decoys growing light from loife
3.
release at least It could be worse
dying for a living
cursed from birth
valued worth 
peace of beast 
shivering mercy
thank you please
converting hertz
to frequency
pain can be pleasure
to a personality preacher
poaching seizure Spirit fulfilling when it is Maslows Pyramid Flipped on its’ tip With everything rhyming Recycled and or forgotten unbegotten bubble bursting 
on the double trodden 
trouble likes to cuddle 
both sides of the rubble
muffle shuffle ruffles
subtley mumble core split

WUbwub by skeet skeet &

how crazy the lazy
who come back to domesticate
and make complacency 
to shame me

little hobbies designed protect against thought
researching free food 
pantries online
making beats n videos 
between waking night
getting everything done with the light
at the last perfect timing increment

to nope or not to nope
said it

having an mpc 
is better than having food you see
eating any remains a big cooking game
effect processing 
to be or not to be

waiting for the internet to load
please make it go faster than slow
wifi 
feedback fountain
when you feel it then it’s real now you know
(full bars no service / tip your enabler)

large influencing personalities
need to accept that they’re going to be
emulated in mainstream culturally
butchering the has been 

the norm 
original skin
original sin
settling down
setters frown
having super social band members who can’t play
instruments well
or having instrumentalists who can play
but have no social skills sensei set
so they copy
go dream growth you rogue way

having and NOT having
to learn to teach
how we handle our thoughts
sharing this beacause there’s nothing else worth it
maybe it is a silent sorry preaching to let me give you free living

expect respect prospect 
and suspect heckn’ speckish inspection
 
words mixed into foghorn 
vāp_or wàvé
born horny cumming bored
formally cordial
fractal design con-tract-ors
every way
every thing
every need
every sun shine rising setting
we won’t see
between bleeding seams of beams
Youse n used users
consumed n abused
call yourself out doom n gloom
preventing anyone 
romanticizing
any of it
of course off course 
now don’t get off too quick 
full bars 
no service

Niques Techniques Back to life Back to reality Back to back to back Noise- Glitch- Dub-
Trap-

verse reverse
time travelers found this earth
4.
Weak to)o( week People who have not given up yet 
think that they need to 
and their lives when It gets difficult inside of their 
own oh me oh my
"YOU WERE MY BIGGEST FAN!" Too much at first Break you off a loop Dog gammit Collapsing under self weight Hung by ones own noose
too long 
too loose to own
to lose Be ing 
jeal ous 
of those
obituaries news How people have 
energy to exercise
their soul beside 1x3

i need my loud
need your loud

i need my loud
you got chore loud

i just got my loud
get your loud

i just got too loud
& got you loud

loud town loud sound loud cloud sound plowing 
we just 
needa 
get the 
loud out 
la la la la la la la la la loud 7x2

Pretty people problems
Hiding Holding healing host_age found Fapping with no one in mind
Solving adorbz core founded
n takes a long time to ignore n revive a sex drive 

Pounding perceive pro-jection of ease
judging jury duties gagging equities equality Barely breathing
Attachment Triggering 8x1
 See 
They wanna suck your dick Whole n lead that role
life with yuh 
past tensify
groupie vibe mouf wide licking lips lubed up n Dry like duh
until you stop fucking their holes
n turn into trolls 
crawl back leaning goals
with & of
 6x4 
LOVE 5x1 I didn’t wanna have an orgy
Group sex party
Jinxing itself dramedy
laughing harder for
gerry mander’d property
n resource based
owing everyone everything
other than what you want to give
this & maybe the most center of self
shiiiit

half and/or half
no art flow of science
you may be that one person 
who i can think of 
having power to relieve all stress
simultaneously assisting as a

better influence for everyone 4x1

In pursuit of happiness together Sharing what we could and could not share
iAM infinitely sorry Hearing every static radio caring
crying Thinking of dying What you wanted me to be That now you cannot see This goes out to me And all the other me's I have yet to be With Hither to You The thing in that of it self Feeling From what we were before we were we Sharing dreams
of glue More like reality
Building But the jello sea impossibly sinking Fighting or fleeing Eating LSD 
N’ Role Playing
After fighting Every day I say to love's On the way How grateful And shitty I faked To make for sake of not breaking Bailing me out All over the country & Not taking Spitting in your face After 3 days of saying & not saying Thinking you were weighing me down But you founded my crescendo pound
Fading frowns
gowned n bound wound like erasing Memories wow round clown nouns sounding Confounded Crowning my queen I even remember how pissed you got When I couldn't get out n go to work So it’s everything else we doubted
except maybe fearing hurt now I cannot forget somehow And inadvertently think about daily ‘Loud/Love’ (samples summed to pad) (Looper - overdub + backwards)

Each battery is a microverse Nano verse Chorus verses May the forces Light
of voice be action If you want to say something out loud Wasted on Solipsism Refreshingly poisonous Enjoyed with your weekend warrior Yes friend wisdom My d needs a hug And do not mansplain to women Thus This is the part of one dead end saying

where somebody prayed for pray
what's in they 
branded brain case cause 
mane testosterone made The main mangy manger dangerous
Dang man Look at how famous 
iAM for posting 
something so basic
n everyone wants loud Love light
leaking
5.
QT 3.1459 04:12
QT 14159265359 QT PIE LULLABY Please don’t Die I Memorize these dreamy signs Flying high above sky Turbines try we so high outside pickup lines Lyricized rhymes Disguised In shyness, never mind If you cry N lie on my Thighs Thy Gliding eyes Shine light Hiding finding Slip n Slide ride I Like Life While Beside Thine My Wife Designing Shrines Assigned Crimes Confided To vine Dyed Sublime White Collide n twine Realign Behind Thine Crystalline Side Best friend Pillow forts n children Heccc yeah My own science band Clairvoyantly Obviously Meme speak Can I just come over and sleep on your floor and hear about and see your life anymore and then drive to here with you and talk about our day dreams and then you hear about and see my life in Here. And then we move you here and then I have to tour for a few weeks and then I come back to you forever thank you please. Best friend Pillow forts n children Heccc yeah My own science band No games. I’ve loved you. The last 9 years Trust above beyond Fear only fear You are the perfect combination of what has turned into a dream list of another. Tho. Wtf. Ahh. It’s okay. Heccc. All natural mindfilled QT_3.14 who can do music better than me and would be a better mommy partner as a daddy than either of us had (I think our standards are fine art lessons and nature study, combined with marketing, telling, yoga, world activist history, psychics, sewing, yoga/martial arts and household repairs. I mean that’s stuff I wanna do and if timed correctly, would work so nice. Adoption is so much fun too because who wouldn’t want to do all that? Maybe someone who saw mommy and daddy loved each other too much to have babies but idk. I want babies or an estate and an absolute best friend to be friends with everyone with. Like if my sigoth died like my mom died and left my Pops, I would be like noooooooooooooo not again no no no. And just thinking about that is scary. I think the next person needs to just be absolutely perfect. I want someone to learn and trust and grow with. I’m not being very trustful right now but if you’d want, you could have all the passwords to my accounts and see how dead it is. I’m trying to not be alone lol, not with you, not really. But trying to not try and getting let down with lack of trust that even these people could keep pushing me in the directions I need to be going which should basically be our shared daydreams which I still haven’t told you. They’re in progress. I’m 32 on May 30th and it’s about time I use my male privilege I have been planning use for my whole life. It’s right now and until I’m 40 but have been doing so good and healthy that I think 40 won’t feel much different. I want to smooch you all over and keep you for myself.
6.
Rooftop 03:28
Rooftop vibrating light Fuck yeah with climate control on in the background too turning it off now you will hear shape change the space.

Up above the street so high
Luxury scraping the sky
Relax Enjoy Earthling Time
One Life Exploit Desired Mind Solar wind greenhouse Rain water filtrate Charge sustain Generated Appliances Interactive Automated Laundry Coffee weed nicotine wine Vegan Gluten Free Dining
on EBT bulk catering all day n night Open therapy Feeling fine Entertainment engineering Lightly Light of life Futurista performing like Inventing Innovation’s kindest shine n grind Day dream’s thine hive mind jive Living my best life Rooftop vibrating light workers satellite 🛰 
interstellar Asteroid ☄️ ride Consumerism replaces society Minimalist DiY replacing What you have makes the grade You pass and survive that way Artist extinct if everyone’s happy Via biological technological devices Ai Bah bah black sheep have you any wool H I JK L MNOP UP ABOVE THE WORLD SO HIGH Motzart wrote this song to fly To o
7.
MARY Mary J with Mary C MARY had a little sheep MARY MARY quite contrary MARY m a g i c Hail Mary full of grace The lord is with thee iMiss MARY mac Marry me i cannot imagine being without your being listening to you breathe while you sleep Tickling your feet OhezZz woahzZz YOU ARE THEE BEAUTY THAT MAKES ME SMiLE, ...tho! #Unconditional #Dreamesque Style low key Teehee ahhaha lol llc You’re singing along to my songs Booking managing of my numbering
awe Bedding sexy timing coddling my attachment anxiety losing my mind losing you cannot fall forever
agave high on our honey moon n above autumnal weather winter spring summer
linger on rings, lover catastrophe lissajous
curves in the shape of 
nations bordering
we adventure
and ignore 
from a tiny loud room 
packed for gear
and squeaky loft bed fettered NYC to Shady grove florida After singing to you in the back of a bar Duh MARY

t hasn’t been a year
but you’re my best friend dear Photograph me like a wedding Model for your resume Tacos and smoothies all day Showered in 365.25 videoing Laughing for too long At housing going wrong Smoke vape heavy lungs Sleeping to beats from above
8.
uP aF 03:44
uPPERS fOR dOWNERS

Gotta get up gotta move around this empty town i found for me i know it’s what you believe in i can’t argue it’s my reflection gotta get up gotta get up and clean the dust from every place there’s not more dying it’s just survival equal phase - i know there’s no more attraction
the people just get laid down around this empty found sound the contemporary populace believes there’s only minds wide open anyone can see inside of me the thoughts are transparent self conscious as opposed to be flawed

i am all i’ll ever the perception inside of me 
it is no-one because its all the same
i am all i see on the other faces 
i bleed and laugh like you
but feel sticky glue

see on the other faces like me, they are nothing 
because we’re all the same. i laugh and breathe like you but i believe and that you feel like glue, and will make me feel like you - sticky.

i have everything i could need i could ask for more iam breaking down and i could become anything you’ll ignore and i could play a game and watch you fade a way to green or gray the colors i prefer to see you not like me although you’ve gotta get up you’ve gotta get up and keep moving

all you are is what you perceive

gotta get up gotta get up 
all you’re doing is abusing time
time like my pseudonym backwards
all you have is energy to hide
it doesn’t move on its’ own
it doesn’t have a place called home
it’s emptiness
it keeps moving
it keeps changing
9.
VAPorWAV 04:34
VAPorWAV Laugh out loud Limited liability corporation Slaying the know now From a data jockey cloud Prerequisite in fresh n wow involved routing resolving Recycled trash Composting composition Compounded occupation formation Half revolve Resolve Tap Sound check Tick tack Testing Less than Pound Sign Symbol Audio analysis In progress Hi Hello How art thou I am iAM Welcome to the showWw! This COULD BE THE BACKGROUND soundtrack selling rebranded pharmaceuticals This could be marketing Theme songs trading stock On bombs around ball rooms This could be corporate playlist holding music
for political brain washing tools
This could be This Could Be You Staged Performance scheduled expression Caged What was felt coming of age which wasn’t everyone’s eventual feeling Unsheltered A decade behind Impressive depression reel too reality sessions Transmitting vapor wave reception For hurry up and wait Or hurry up and nevermind Finding this awkwardly LLc Limited liability corporation Graphs a cloud Prerequisite silly involved routing resolving Recycled trash Composting composition Compounded occupation formation Half revolve Resolve Tap The best part of waking up is staying woke as fuck Trying to sell yourself out On your own clout n time You’ll dance to anything Back cracking looped n amplified Singin Advertised demographic prison anthems like a substance diffused or suspended in air, especially one normally liquid or solid earthen state of matter Totally out of tune Inaudible lyrics 0% yes Synthspired Grooves n ruts Of Serious Suggested Donations require You Cancel I Redelete me Ditto Maximus prime explaining Magic with science Recycled trash classics again Again & a gain Rise Shine N Grind Feigning for a friend A faux foe mainstream Guide Going loco Truncated In iambic pentameter SlidinG scale of circus Curious lumen light scattered continuum hypnagogic augmentation thrown to know 99 bars means no repeats Back in the space days hang on let me put these in i don’t know who else is sleepin Humanize harmoniously Symbiotically listening When you try to not And you actually super don’t And and and and and and and donezo aesthetic
10.
Pop Star 01:37
Pop Star Pop start Pop tart Flop start Plop fart Popular tune I love what you’re doing You owe me your attention span Everything you are Is what I wish I was Instead Iam comparing and hating Everything you are doing man Regards, Your biggest careless dumbest fan Influencers Censoring Their shit show Speak monotone Wireless phone Cords Off record hooked Hero Zero for real low Now you know Mainstream Paying for the plebs Background furniture scene Lame stream of consciousness Sell a sucker their dream While investing in keeping your rating Copyright © protected Intellectual private property Merchandise made months ahead Interviewing questions I have already answered on the world wide web Name dropping Mainstage acts With booking admin sets Drugs Sex Music
11.
Found Sound 04:22
Everybody wanna be somebody (x12) To somebody else Felt uncomfortable to ask for help Be yourself or anyone else
The self’s 
health Stealth 
Wealth
shelf selling wellness 
spells for sterile
sects cells 
swells of excellence 
compelled dwelling shell Propelled
r e(e) lev-el-ed
around hell less citadels
welts of pelted melting n sweltering 
SOLIPISISM (not NARCISSISM )
SUBJECTIVISM (not OBJECTIVISM )
ANTRHRO POCENT RISM (not SPECIESISM)
UNIVERSALCENTRISM

Fractal soul solar cognition 
Granule cell of cerebellum
V-Y Canis Majoris star system
Individual unification 
human condition 
(upgrading ingrading)
Data jockey every file 
From the beginning of existure
to thee end of nil
Everything’s a sample
on the record while Experience the filter
of the
socio psycho logical
spectrum filler
huh?
 Comparison of what someone had and has Letting go of others bad dream madness Getting yours helping others get their back 3)
 questions own growth 
blood flow brain going bad
you already know what it is inc. so…
sad
sentence structure
be your own hoeP dream your own growth gratitude Pathosocio physcho logic

sing
 Have safe. Be fun. Practice Patience Grace Compassion Personality Inspiration Unity Determination Passion Humility Appreciation Awareness Community self aware
being self consuming post consumer waste keep it pink BE FUN HAVE safe date core day to day Face grace displacing fate Interfacing without latency anarchy paced haste Interlaced incase Bass tastes racy May EmBracing unpaid wages praise Lay space paving ways

found sound Universal exploration urban rural suburban Education Home school Untertainment Socialization Dreamesque Poeticalogic Don’t forget to breathe Genuinely Found Sound
12.
Poeticalogic 02:27
Children afraid of ghosts Adults afraid of dying Mentally breakdown people Loves me I’m already broken down 

fetal found Worrying about those Who only worry about exploiting chosen

Having no one to talk to makes lyrics better frozen
in timelessness anyway. <# Wonder who has the easiest life Or who makes the most art and love Those who like sex

deleting all your art
not backing it up

making art like your day job
make your artful day job art

art is playing Turn your head and cough Keeping your chin up Makes it more efficient
to off self instead
Drugging self to work junky It’s not bright enough 
to wear glasses inside honey
to hide your suicidal eyes Want ant 🐜 minus double u v
those shapes look the same to me Draggings of elf down street 
to the tempo of this beat per minute 120
at why you go so quick (quick sound) you know you’re not leaving early listen uh, so…
 How many of us wanna be see what we’ve seen where we want to be or how we accept our daily yes. Pearls hang in there Like brass Know what I’m saying Just keep loving anyway. -Pops Knowing how to ask questions Lucid & Not going up to anyone Intrusive 

Say it
for those in the background 
spray it
spade n fade to jaded
counting the ways of you naked
pave it, rate it, date it IAM like this around everyone tho You might actually be special so

when you don’t think anyone
has ever been able to feel
the amount of loss that you have 
and you assume that’s really 
why you’re different Attractive female form Randomly generated Cosmology normalized If it’s not social It’s not worth anything
bored…
sound effects on the radio,
except just my words
and not repeating
yeah, that what you think it would work
if you’ve never heard of 
noise glitch vapor
here it is
choosing to understand
spoken mumble broken
poeticalogic,
shiiiiit
13.
Existure 1 02:46
Existure LLC 
literature circa 2013
daily writing then typing
poeticalogic
from an office editing
adult content then cataloguing
mgmnt for 14 monthly 
investing in machines you see
publicly liberating
NE Philly internationally
from parents being
and the kitties
to sitting alone in thee
empire state
avoiding conveyor assembly 
acting on all thoughts humanely Practiced programming personality 
never-ending 
 I am not my gender I am a person Animastic Asphalt or Inna Concrète jungle cage Veteran party rocker A motivating sit To escape Delusions of grandeur Got through mometary Crucially Daydreaming And don’t forget To remember Fun up the kitty We all have individual niche markets And when we figure out that We and it is always morphing Universal Assistance 

If you think capitalism is bad Imagine those who Propagated it

sell your soul OR sell anothers' soul Giving a shit Verses taking a shit Or giving a fuck No one takes a fuck about shit Or tautologically Redundant Visa Versa. Tuning Humanity Figured out Truth is comedy And that is funny For all but one reason Swip it Take your turn to speak Spend your time 

what is your credit card number, number on the back and expiration date? *extra credit: what name is on the front? Curb credit “Paranoia is the rationality of shit.” 
fuel for frequency Cis Herero normative people Make everyone sad Shopping a lot To stock up on what you had and had to have Having gear is cheaper Than being around fearful jerks who Copy/Paste/Delete your cheer Welcome to the now, the singularity Sounded Transcendal sleepy futurist Getting used to Getting used too. Is it better to be missed or a burden? Suicide is for doing Not talking about lurkin. Remember all the remembers? Self depreciating behavior wastes so much time we could have spent doing a good rather than talking about feeling fine Check it out now Everybody wanna lay down Vivisection
Hemidemisemiquaver

they tryna make any reason they want
for why anything is how it is I sung a sanG about that song Cannot Get enough alone time Then they go away and Have to get used to them Being away Se la vie a crime Say live and let die Avoiding the wrong Makes me do the right Or find new wrong Hacker threads and needles Chew through it. That’s what they tel me to do Shwizzled Eating a chicken corpse Freegan not buying or seeking Meat is murder Of courSe

being chased around by bad dreams
our own ghosts as hollowed out marrow Dry as a bone

banging birthday bash cum candy cake n cash

turn down for the clown I tried to send you a video. Pictures won’t sent babies. Remember how slow it is And especially on the road. Ceremony Caught the 420 bus. Bored traveliomfno erehled traveling interrogated traveling trying to share traveling check everything while traveling don’t talk to. En traveling eat sleep and hydrate while traveling You can’t say that out loud. “Fuck the police Fuck the feds too I ain’t jumping in the jump suit” Courtney - Yoko Coco Flirt skrrrt skrrrt A joke becomes a lie when it is not funny A joke is only funny when it’s true Jokes are weird Extra Extra Meme all about it. At the top they have they Compare who has the most At the bottom they contrast who has the least Impaling vampires. Telling all your trauma To an empath IAM too sensitive Says the zombie assembly line Gotta find my dude I M being rude Relying on unreliable User error Spirituality Making up magical powers Mythology 

cracktavists
tryna find something to fight Ratchet grease Gotta eat Flesh of 1% Daydreamy
14.
Existure 2 05:22
eedy cracktavists
tryna resent 

What if your life was just your life?
EXISTURE LLC
 I couldn’t find my sock! Then suddenly... ... I found my sock! #TheBeginning #TheMiddle #TheEnd 

What's everyone doing to abolish corruption in politics, dismantle the patriarchy and install a stronger network of community this weekend?

fRfR tho... (...probz hiding in the snowWw)

all grind all shine
all grind no shine
no grind all shine
no grind no shine I don't talk about people. I talk to people about them. And I make it come up. No one wants to use the software I use And it’s not even the brain-iest All of my favorite people Turns against me Once I can tell them They’re my favorite.

social interaction art

community software

withholding your words
when they wanna use theirs
body language
quantum entanglement
perception & experience Gold digging Through the trench The universe is not your friend It is your burden
 Social 
anxiety strangers preventing everything
chest fills up with tension
feels like i need to scream and run
but iAM also falling asleep
learning to not talk to anyone

it takes so much strength to care

People who don't know what they're doing, who think they know what they're doing, don't like it when they see people who really know what they're doing, doing what they're doing, especially being so flamboyant about doing it against the odds.

People accidentally showing you your minds’ worth
And you finally accept it and stop taking shit from the squirts Shouldn’t have said that out loud #FruitFleshFetish <# You are whatever you tell yourself you are Will Make fame obsolete And irrelevant On today’s to do list Fractal loife Telling yeh Take the things means of production Put it back into its own production 
 Trying at all To find someone Or something To miss When you can’t tell someone How much you miss them 
4,900 Hz hiss

so you heard iAM well
&
well you heard iAM so
felt for a spell
said ‘word’
‘cause i know
 Burping up smoke like a dragon Jumping on my own band wagon 
The taste of broken teeth
leaking nerve n dentine
 Traditional beast With nutritional yeast Roasting your feet 
in your least 
artful feast, sheesh Taking a nap while then sun is out Making music for people to listen to Sigh on high. Being loved the ways you want And the total opposite because Remember that time you met me and you were like, woah and I was like barely there and you noticed I was just being extra nice about it Well that’s my always now and here. Out of orbit Reset Artifacts SwipeRight For Bad News Bears 2018 The importance Of importance And impotence For ignorance It easier to sleep Through holidays 40 hours a week Margin of error happy just to be 
of MPC and software sunrise is an all day process How many lumens Determines the point of Sun rise or sunset Which both last all day Good night have fun be safe order of parts in a song Pattern sequencing Super models too much maintainence Maybe if I’m rich and famous What a curse your only worth Death by WiFi Tired voice As if expression of choice We’re a day job to boise All the time and gear to make my Imagination Organized noise

putting away everything you need to use Upgrading to rust finish Qualified to use this sequence of words So skittish Ever gone a month without showering Or know The taste n texture of teeth. What’s the point of sleeping If iAM perfectly okay Falling asleep In this studio building this way If you wanna hear what’s on my mind I have your attention now Married people’s idiosyncrasies Vacation from social media Blocking your favorite local Napping 12 hours naturally A specific sorrow A generic sorrow Responding to duds As the inflection of my voice Maybe you’re just chronically home sick. And you’ve been evicted from The love that is your home And you’re single aF Because you’re too particular I make homes in people who can make homes out of anything especially me and it sucks. I have never gotten a sigoth in any other way than performance and K really messed me up here with that, after I was doing so good. I think I exceeded this and now people hate me for it literally people have tried to fight me for being Light and I haven’t always been Light and I’m not always Light but most usually around other humans now. Still working through the art to find how

God is the collective consciousness that we are all tapped into. Whatever you put in is what you get out. Space, void, stories, bar games. You are your own god. Why lovelessness drives humans crae Daydreaming to protect me from the ephemeral here/now I know I just want to make my art but I cannot stop worrying about where to exist next. Begin writing songs just as you think of them And have been All along My mind is all like, ‘FUCK THE WORLD’ and so I dive into making music to show only near perfect strangers hoping they’ll get hooked sorry book People only yell at you for doing what they have done Wiping your butt with used papier from the trash can and your bare hands because you forgot to check the air for a fresh roll of shit tickets pull from the front or back or roll it around your hand with shards of feces everywhere Only able to document 1 thought at a time Reading forums from times when vintage obsolete gear was brand new and blew everyone’s mind the ‘My favorite ‘color’ is translucent technicolor night glow.’ starter pack Looking like you own that walk n talk Or at least a permanent lease in chalk I would kill them for you For breaking your heART But iAM deathly allergic to death. Sigh. All yellow lights Everyone’s lined up At drive thru bank They all smell and look high


no one’s yelling dinner time
from the other room while i work
on the magic that hypes everything somehow Forget why I’m doing this Only wanted to sustain self On imagination Fancy as fuck Faf-y Unimaginable dental pain Breathing air temperature change Suppity do dah day yo. Don’t wanna get too ready All you have to do is know Only the good survives I laugh harder and have a better life 
than the trolls who can’t figure out how to be nice. by the time you’re ready for me, i’ve already moved on
15.
Existure 3 02:31
Celebrate my demise Farewell goodbyes One day of days I won’t be able to Negotiate your fate At touch pace Side step bypass Sometimes all you have is positivity. Therapists don’t know you they know what you tell them. I have never seen anything like this in my Life.

imo is all lyrical
i don’t talk anymore again
you hurt me when i called you my friend When you f in ally realize you matter to yourself The privileged one’s sound As-is Pull all Mutes Too many loops That’s what I did in the last song All along I hated making albums So cute Swallowing food upside down If you try too hard You sound like nothin Psychology Movement Making art to document fun free life If you do not like these words You can listen to sound of Undense skull flesh marrow Breathing everything around Breathing br eat hing sound If you give a consumer all that they want They become confused. There’s not enough emptiness in it. Secure your password. Being terrified your president knows what they’re doing That was a good response Let’s make an example Out of that because Ethics are what everyone should do Morals are what you are doing So much quieter at night I can focus on my light Freelance work is aight If you make art with a life. Words mixed into foghorn This side of the dirt Selling design concepts Everywhere you and yours consume The worst could be behind or ahead or never adventurous don't get to be here Tell others expectations so sad it really means to do anything badly I am just like a lot of Roy When I am not carrying my performance machines Who wants to go out when they canm watch it online and no one can afford anything owing debt to have a blandly good 1st and only life time Tell me how to react right now You want me to helmets do anything Full bars. No service. Sweat dust smells like cereal vape Beina total jerk assured and work for Lockheed Martin or Carnival doing multimedia. Pssssht. Sucker proof today And always Fools today same as when you hear and in heard this Anti rhymin schemes Are also a difficult Cult to pattern sequence There is no peak or climaxing Until death Quality control On point At Spotify upload from DristroKid Social shaming For perception of awesome. While actively trying to get my friends paid Think you ate my food Think you forgot to pay me for food I paid you for herb and you halved that. I appreciate your work attitude, again. Like the first time, my 2 year friend. No one would need to tour If they had local support To spread the survival word Your rights only exist on a piece of paper if you believe voting is your voice. People with their own mind key, keeping themselves locked in their head. People who knew you before You lost what you worked hard for And help with your chores So you don't become ignored with their own mind key,
16.
Existure 4 05:08
Prisoners locked in their own dream. To make the world less scary Being the least creepy dude instead "Flesh & bone may make my home while 'Ghosts' are here to help me." BYO laugh track Making it up as I go along & Writing it down wrong Guess I have to be deceased For you to believe That what I speak Is for thee And none one else Does it come from me Stop You are my favorite You were my favorite Who are thine flavor like Hue fur why savor life Drop Scared of what will become be nice to get your fun Like the kitties life Independence fight Always have someone on yer mind Tell you what you wanna think about while you're dying You wanna laugh out loud but somehow cannot stop the crying Relief of grief living beneath imagination seedlings Growing tall the roots can't fall further than the leaving ceiling Canopy camping human leaving nothing behind Who the heck be that Who the heck be that Who the heck be that Who the fuck is that yoh Trying to get it over with No one knows what I'm doing options

kind of want to return this machine
sell the other machines
and commit suicide again
no machine will do what i need it to
other than the one’s with very low bit rates Want to be the cutest ever Just because you want to smash her Pondering on suicide Don't wanna run or hide Repairing what's wrong Rather than write songs For no one to find Outside my timeline 

going about our own biznaz
your system told us to do
and my people and i have averted that
and for our own reasons, we have saved the world Can't get warm enough Everyone says to forget you cough If you don't see bitches you must be Them sound If everyone else smellif Berta you must be stinkin Hardening dick Extends slowly Into poop water bowl Dont feel like opening my new machine Kind of want to sell everything Pay everyone back And commit suicide Knowing That doing 
The boring normal planned out work your life to death skit
isn’t worth shit every time i try to do it
the exhaustion of struggle is also unreal
the gray in between is expectation making plans
that turns into improvisation 
that goes beyond just to make something i like
and i put off eating sleeping and money
constantly siting wondering if anyone could love me
like this or the half correct way
so far no one and it’s always been so much work to get love
i don’t want to play a game and that is how to fail
no game, no life - i am so bored and overwhelmed
without any reward in any near future
just work
i
want
to 
die This MPC LIVE made my dick feel bigger And using it makes my Sex feel good Then that immediate satisfaction Turns into confidence balanced Carelessness of sustainability Dash board confessionally The best lyrics Were figured out in memes. No medium sized Trophy life signals routed What a waste of memory Anyone hating you for following your heart, doesn't love all your parts let them go. Make some Make some art I am the only voice in the room Right now able to say anything out loud so

expression is to creativity as
water is to air as
depression in the cities
on the farms, genetic soft to hard mal ware wearing where Worn transients n nodes No respect no 
 This is not your regularly scheduled broadcast Someone showing their weakness Means they are comfortable near you And if you can handle their crumbles They will love you even more And you can love them for loving you Hitting that No exhale Invaluable Knowing someone can help you But they won't Because you blew it And they're a sucker When they help jump your car Certainly doubt fear Failing sleeping bag zipper Sleeping on carpet on studio floor No one is asking to see you Unless you brag about your Content design doesn't matter Unless it's funny because it's true because it's deep We hope you never lose your innocence and understand any words of these songs Rather be uploading it all to the internet To see how long it lasts there Commit suicide by comfy sleeping So fucking bored Not going anywhere while living Should not tell your self to has been All your voices are and words are cool People obsessed with you, fucked up Fooling love with expectation And we are globs of matter That only matter to our selves Everyone else feels guilty If you freed from your body Having my own place seems more impossible than going on a world tour. Oh right, needs dependable others &/or credit. A bed & shower super seem luxury.

 Being fun until they trying break you Then ask why you're broken and unfun And not worth the trust Thinking you suck for too long Having too much alone time

settling in what you don’t want

learn to enjoy what you have
here’s a pile of crap
when you’re done sorting through it
there’s more
17.
Existure 5 06:56
trolls make enjoying anything
embarrassing and taboo your favorite thoughts are a burden

they bury you in debt for being in debt / suffer for suffering

practice mating as if your genetics are worth surviving this century Next years memes A musician without a show On a holiday is called an artist

preying on prayer
that something will kill you
since you cannot trust
you’re scared
getting used to dumb shit
dumb people n their quitting

not letting anyone outside of song
how wrong it feels to be alive
the fuck you gonna do
the fuck you You don't climb somewhere bystealing 

why would anyone want to frame anyone?
they’re not getting any from who you got from National emergency So many corpses like the highway People watching people watching Standing awkward looking confident Faking it till they make it From the cradle to the grave One hand in their pocket And The other on a blade of Spotlighting Whoopie Goldberg, John Legend, remarry Wind and Fire people spending thousands of dollars to show off their tax deductibles Falling asleep Holding hands Wishing it would all end While it feels nice Vocal intonation Exhaustion Pushing through The olden days Brand name Rebranding Burnt skin In the name of Ownership Marketing Promotion Product placement Culture jamming An idea Personality shape shifters Who don't laugh Or think Can't proxy that N grump up With memory collections Including when They could not even

let’s turn this into a 1st world problem
1st world problem
1st world problem

another sad singer song sculpter
silly small story similar so sorrow Too little too late Malarkey 
malarkey Can't even say what's in front of yay Only what you recognize Associate relate and experience All of my art has a resolve somehow Only needing me for your utilities I am worth my immobile abilities Alone to no one History of family mental illness I had to overcome this to survive and shit I'm not that different Normalizing fame It's just its' thing No one can really affect me Because I hardly go out When your 1 liners slay More than your convo Feeling totally crazy in this room So blandly can't sit here Can't sleep or eat or create what I need Can't hide or socialize Can't settle or hide Missing every memory I thought was not the best before Desensitized Commercialized Bad guys only have a name When they are eccentric Infamous All plans fell away
 There's plenty of manual laborize Some of you are hecka affluent And still having a bad time Somehow doing it wrong Hard Hong my mellow Cuticle flavored consumables The last time you saw A loved one Family member Or friend Dumpster nap in Lodi CA Wishing the thing that felt like it was killing you, would kill you already,unknowingly in your own sleep. Giving people too many chances Wanting to go to the hospital Just to have a bed to sleep in Just so it'll be soft and warm So that I don't have to feel suicidally exhausted unable o sleep or stay awake Happiness is a utility To survive Can't sleep too excited to live Fuck college if you don't know what you're doing. Frustrated fucks Ppl staring at their phones Is better than committing crime

Chorus of my new song feels like..
For those who take the wrong things too seriously and the wrong things as jokes: Those whom complain about the world Love themselves Won YunG N Hung Ear popping infection Cochlear ear cell damage Comfy predictable Who's got the time Once you figure it out Ear infection Pronouncing words differently Just because you're bored Outstanding Fantastic Superb Awesome Nice Sic Cool They don't think you're for real Because your nice still IAM here because of you And you left me here alone Unknowingly giving freely of selfly Passed out in the daze of all Days Passed out all the daisy chained fades Passed out everything every way Passed down sound mouth brain chemistry Suppity do dah? Suppity dey Sigh woe sigh Wish I could feel hecken gay When the bartenders the hottest knw Inspiring a movement you cannot be part of Thread Realize they want your art you made them a year before now they see you're moving shit infinitely in a small space Shrunken tummy Mobile sleepy Food coma 1 k in cash N no where to crash n be Feeling like an adult driving in the rain When gratefulness was grating your pain into gain Vitriol Man made mountain When you asked for help People wanted to make you their Bitch Trade exhausted services What if believing in god gives you cancer We c one from different worlds But here we are There you go No one cares to listen before and Rationalized that no one should listen to music unless they made it themselves But here it is For exposure Hahahaha Without freedom wit speak The art will suck & since everything's so backwards Old what else todo with a life If you blow me off too many times I will blow you off game over Unless you blow me And 90% of you Have no access to that. Saving all my school work for show This is what I was offered This is what I learned This is what I did with it Some people only smile when they're sad Even while I'm hurting Still tryna practice the nice nice Can't be asking for help too often Never had robbed out of blood For survival basics We should probably take our high down low. Liars hate me Floor to car to couch Sleeping between homes Ouches When they keep bringing up a topic They want to heal it or control the power Smelling like sex And haven't gotten any Since March Taking and giving a nap back To sleep living a dream Easy cum Easy flow Absence of untrained pleasure The flowers make me fun If you can't write a song We probably won't get along If you don't take pictures of tiny things Your love probably stings When you take everything away from a smart person and they get even smarter. More air More friction More sound It's just sound If they won't let you help free them Make them feel their domestic slavery Spend $10 on fossil fuels To avoid a $3 toll Because no money Mommas man without a momma Always accept showers, food and money. Stealing Depleting energy Spending it gathering others to Come back to crush you with it Looking way too cool To be acting a fool Influencing friends And acquaintances Friends telling me Pinching chi horse Working 2 full time jobs for that tail Full Razzle dazzle Toe nails rotted From not being able to change socks enough Road life vs street life 32 oz fast food cup of your urine Brie we culture Recycling reuses Being alive is stupid Expectation and planning Loud for those in the. Back Basically scared of everything Mommas boy without a momma No mo Na mean? Kind of scares is why I am so nice Maybe someone will Protect the world with me together if it looms fun Standards vs priorities Telling people you're homeless And they tell you everyone is While they have the same place to sleep each night they are fine without shower but whine while I shine for some timelessness & Scaring same people away attachment issues Body language tissue If your dream doesn't kill you It will hollow you out Replace you with defaults Waiting for art to go all the way up Didn't know you felt like that It must be easy to follow through with your plans with safety nets every direction so that your life can mean something nice to itself and the others doing alike Once you accept you don't matter It stops hurting Feels like No one will love you If they never met your parents Only listening to your own music And your closest friends music Letting the car free fall 

enough pretty angles
angels

this would be great
to hear and or see
in prison Famished artist Investment iAM all plastic And it is inc lo-fi loud right now Can't afford to wash clothes Just bought po box Because iAM economy homeless Shit still sucks But I can't post about it Unless it's artful Anymore Multimedia noise glitch activism Until it can become more ideal regular being enough for myself Though You know How your joints and blunts feel Spurt of growth ended 2 decades upon this planet ago After sleeping on a cold carpet Homeless squat of a shelter safe From 1st encounter elements
18.
Existure 6 07:22
Trying to e drunk and high enough to sleep homelessly squatting on a floor

fill the broken cracks with gold replacing inspiration With mundane memories Complaining makes others complain Gratuitous sex and gore N baby wipes WoMan made wake They want to hate you for Wanting to be be what you already are All ready set to go Lights camera action Volition 
Neuro typical humans Accept the world as-is To find their role Forever comparing 
overwhelming alone
waiting for anything
tryna self checkout When I see someone struggling I think about how to make it softer Broken sleeping bag and it's quite cold and you have work in the morning and you're homeless Different iRL Your skill set is not required What you'd do and not do To survive Someone awesome to commit suicide with Having your yes closed while moving Opening them and tryna get used to it Tis bout dat experience My baby on the other side of this Also knows I'm here and we keep laughing there's nothing else I want to respect your emotions more She doesn't want you if you want her And Loneliness almost romantic Holding in the smoke Till there's none to blow out Composure composition Remembering how to say no thing When they finally see you Thing on your mind Can't do anything else Until it's accomplished Giving up on it Makes you even older Than the struggle stress clutter n smothered someone to daydream with getting got caught fight & flight Most of my friends and my jobs interesting When I don't smoke Life is panic and fear And I get used and used to it And end up in tears Needs more help than professionals can offer and everyone's over it tryna get theirs Trying to listen tinnitus Left ear Hz Left migraine Staying awake long enough To wait for all else to sleep Sneak in to dream Of something working UnjinxXx Murphys martial law I didn't write you a song Because you broke me down But thank you for AAA and Staying in the hospital Just gave me all my stuff back I need my loud Got your loud 
and or how 
 Best part of living in the now It can be changed relatively easily Center of self Changes of road color rental differ Gerry mannered township border Influencing everyone But not allowed to be a part And they expect to go out And support them cop styling So numbly of agreeability When you have only loneliness to sacrifice For art forfocus for this capital G

 It's not cute anymore Novelty fades Now you have to contribute more Super conductor waves Someone calling me robotic and numb for being strong for them and their melting emotions all over the confused place It was never this slippery deep sticky I am more scared right now in life than ever Only desperate people Move to the city Showing social media how you became a lowercase G My pizza is 24 /7 fresh hot pizza any gas station they get bored and make experimental awesausme sausage n top it off Being allergic o gluten Means it turns into alcohol In your stomach And you're always drunk Hives itchy cranky slow sneezy Seen out the corner of each eye Look directly nothing Diving deeper Because of people's impact and intention I feel uncomfortable doing Regular human things It's a big stage

mutually exclusive
a single coin toss, which can result in either heads or tails, but not both
In logic and probability theory, two propositions (or events) disjoint if they cannot both be true (occur)

struggle to be your own
make you better at being that Children don't have patience for you But they say they have adult things To lie around about Don't you have people you can stay with? Not knowing you're the main and integral support and fuck you No thank you everyone Standing in the first room you were in wen you arrived Being too much for everyone Everywhere Every when Because they couldn't Shut me up Or shut me down Plant yoga Phyte = plant. Asana= yoga posture These are not the words that I want to use Waking up from couch surfing Whenever they wake up Regardless of your triple Z's Organizing a day of dreams Everyone looks homeless today No ones happy At least iAM doing what I want And it's not hurting anyone For too long Loss On's Only asking strangers for help Thinking different amount Of people remember you Than really do If it weren't for my jobs I would be so out of here Well wishing well Paid the cat too much attention Now it owns my love Human voices

while my head is slamming aches
i am manic and depressed
making reality less hateful "People who post all their thoughts online, do not have anyone to talk to iRL." <#, 185668232 Knowing how it feels to be someone else and knowing your experience exhaustion after the fun became done It's not so much who gave you the gift But that someone cared about you At some time you received love And it was real and this is evidence When you traded all your humanity To express it And the expression has no depth or content I don't know how much longer I can do this without getting number to lower standards than I already am used to. And all promised focus becomes nonsensical entertainment to no one Keep finding a new way to do the fun thing Repeating four times two slow times one still times zero times reverse Friends who try doing the amount They last did A while Without tolerance And die Smile as you die Let them take your nice nice How poor people are expected to shave Beyond Spacial time ride Putting the miles on it Putting the smiles on it

looking for that loud

drove to Chicago to see a pretty face
couldn’t stay and lost $300 worth of gear instead

free wifi feels like free wifi

screaming baby sounds
while you try to sleep
the couple hours you have
between now and the next dream
give it what it wants you’ll do that anyway
so save us all some brain

a turd too large to suck down the train toilet hole
curled into a ball between 2 seats 
you know you have a neck when you wake up to speedy

dude telling stories about the people sitting around 
just making up innocent fictional prose sound

asked to move out while shit is falling through
sitting with me while iAM packing asking me to cuddle
then 

significant other
sigoth

situation
sit

free wifi only advertisements loading make an art about it

you’re pretty and talented enough
but you’re not sane enough
to compliment my insanity

yo but the yunG travelers at places hang around me and i sass off to the sassy homeless people tryna sell time and i'm all like yo you aint got rhyme and they say WHAT? and i say SHH and the yunG travelers pull out their cigarettes and the security guard says no smoking so i pull out a vape and hand the dude with a yoga mat a cd and a tape and the dude who dropped the bread doesn't know how dead this head's been unfed, sleeping in a bed is for the privileged if they know how to use their words instead. so i'm like okay and the dude goes to sleep beside the outlet, i'm not reaching over that shit that dudes got a long day for his script set. asking for fries, for money, i hand him a cig. he doesn't want it so i walked inside again for the bathroom safety. but other dudes gotta shit and i'm just tryna not be seen. sending out a SOS so no one has to send out a search part-y. see my fancy computer and im crying trying to seem stable so the people in there dont' see a vulnerable artist sitting at a table. waiting for signal my phone can't handle uber, and the guards at the train can tell iam almost homeless just holding onto my mind while you some live like youtubers. When all the isolationists Who never leav l on It is easier to get to wake you about things together similar wayy

making merch
in your living room

with every tour
i want a family more Probability knot Untied Neurotypically handicapable Cuticle fur What are you doing in the country For how long What was the last incident You have to wait in immigration Legal vaporizer nicotine levels It may take a while If I can't leave the country Because of her knife And his joint Thank omfg My self motivation And artist isolation For children and a woman Earth is where All souls coalece Which witch Spidget finner Finna Maternal material Plain plane Papier fabrique Medical scrub A wub Fashion Prison culture Stitching Spoken word Promises coming & going For realsies For certain For sure And whomustve ignored Return when you've done good The hood needs an engine to trap Could kill my car doing this Would you back out on broken day dreams
19.
Existure 7 04:00
20.
Existure 8 08:08

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eXiSTuRe is 185668232's 12th consecutive annual album. It was released in beta/scratch/demo-mode on May 30, 2018. This album is an improvised expression hold-me-over for easier times. It is a practice of vapid melodies and casual beats with heavy hooks, organized noise into a definitive glitch concept of #PowerPop as a more accessible gateway entry for the standard 185668232 content.

***This album will be posted on Spotify May 30, 2019 when it is complete...***

Here is the self-titled track for the album eXiSTuRe that is seamless and too large for BandCamp.

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